Everything is going well. The spiritual stuff, weight loss, the social life, the relationship, the job, keeping in touch with family, etc... I know everything can improve and I am always striving to make that happen, but really, honestly, I am happy right now. Really happy. Javier and I are taking things slowly, but onward... progress. I love that man. I still don't know if I'll spend my forever with him, nor do I really think I'm prepared to take that step, but for the moment, all is well.

I am a few pounds away from weighing what I did before the mission - but even then, once I reach that weight, it's only a small step in my ultimate goal. Brooke, I promise you I WILL fit into your dress. :) I may have to have a certain part of it altered though because of my many "blessings," as some say. What do you think? I found out the other day (through measuring my elbow - aparently it's the most accurate test of bone structure size) that my bone structure is small-medium. This is something I never would've guessed in a million years. All my life of being chubby, I hid behind the excuse that I have "big bones" or a big bone structure... that I could never be as small as my mom, but after realizing that maybe I have a smaller bone structure then I realize, it's like the sky just opened up to me and increased my potential 100 times. It's incredible what kind of motivation comes when you don't put limits on yourself - when you realize the potential you have.

I am still loving the job - it's not easy, and it takes a lot of responsibility and forces me to grow a lot, but I honestly know it's worth it. I may be able to participate in a science camp with kids I tutor during the summer. It's a week of HARD FUN WORK from sun up to sun down (says my supervisor) - science experiments, looking after the kids, helping them learn like crazy, etc... I know it'll be a lot of work, as they tell us, but I KNOW I WOULD LOVE IT. I told my supervisor of my interest in participating and I really hope that I am chosen. Though I don't have a degree in teaching or a bachelor's degree at all, like a lot of other tutors, I know I bring things to the table that others don't. I hope and pray I am chosen for one of the camps (or more than one)!!

Things at church and in my spiritual life are wonderful. I was given a calling in my ward to be in the Relief Society presidency - I have never served in this capacity and I know it is an amazing opportunity for growth. I will be teaching the class this Sunday and I am nervous, but excited about it. I love the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and every day I am amazed at how blessed I am to have the testimony and knowledge I have - to have been taught the principles and doctrine my Heavenly Father wants me to know, since I was young. I have made so many mistakes, just like we all do, and I have had my times of feeling the need to pray to my Heavenly Father to once again ask him forgiveness, but I see the progress - I feel it in my heart, and see it in the direction my life is going. It amazes me and brings me so much gratitude for my Savior Jesus Christ and God the Father - all the love God has for us and all he does for us, while knowing the best ways to make us grow and learn. I love being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

I am happy, content, and excited for the future. I have a lot to do today, and I'm going to try to get it all done, but I'm not going to let the stress and worry take over - Life is good, and God is good, and I am here pushing along.

Kalli Dawn