I want to dance

I just watched a very cheesy chick flick. Though very unrealistic and far beyond dramatic, a few things DID grab my attention. They weren't things particularly distinct about THIS movie, but actually pretty common chick flick happenings. The "ultimately cheesy perfect couple" danced, and it very much hit my "I suddenly want to dance with a very cute guy who is taller then me" button. Then after she got in an mild accident he stayed the whole night at her apartment just sitting on the couch watching her sleep. Wow. Very cute. THEN he made dinner for her and they ate on some random roof lit with Christmas lights. And he was playing tag with a bunch of kids when she went to visit him at work. Then they got married in front of a merry-go-round.


Do any GUYS think of this sweet, romantic relationship stuff as something desirable to them? I had a boyfriend once who used to say "it's so cute and romantic" to cheesy chick flick worthy things he saw. It always made me laugh. I know they (guys) probably don't think about this kind of stuff as much as we girls do, but deep down I think they really like a little cheese and romance. I want a guy who has the confidence to admit that, and then does his part to put it into the relationship.


On the topic of relationships - I wish I could better discern whether I like a guy because I want to be in love or because he truly is the type of person who I could spend forever with. Sometimes I feel like I could easily choose to stay in a relationship and end up marrying someone who I believe I am in love with, but isn't truly the man I should be with. It seems that although I know of the high possibility that there is someone out there who I may truly need, I blind myself by thinking too highly of this current love. It's easy to lose yourself in the beauty of the trust, comfort, and love that has already developed between you and someone you've grown so close to over the years. It's scary and frustrating to wonder if it'll take another 4 years to develop that bond, that trust, that love. But of course, even 10 years would be worth it, if it's right, right? Although, I do prefer to be married before 2020. I could hardly think of marrying someone I haven't known for a while (doesn't have to be 4 years, but I definitely don't trust 3 weeks of dating before the engagement begins). Enough of marriage... I really am not usually one who thinks about marriage all the time. Even though I fit the typical girl who should - 23 year old mormon girl who returned from a mission for the church 1 month ago, attending BYU, living in Provo, has had a few boyfriends in the past... typical 'ready-for-a-more-serious-relationship' mormon girl. But honestly, I really just want to have fun, learn more about myself, work on my degree, and find out what it is I truly want. And if hanging out and a few dates get mixed into that plan, well, I'll gladly welcome them in.


I really do want to make the most of this time - learn all I can, grow as much as possible, and find out what are my true priorities.


It's amazing all the thoughts and feelings that can be born from a short little movie on TV.
Time to go to bed. Goodnight my empty audience. :)

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